44. A Broken Bond
ALPHA RAIDEN
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I wore the fake smile regardless of the blinding pain eating me away.Content held by NôvelDrama.Org.
I kept my eyes on them even though seeing them and their kids together broke me. I felt a painful twitch in the depths of my soul when she muttered, "Yes, I'll marry and mate with you." Don't break right here. Don't, Raiden....
I chanted to myself while almost everyone in the arena cheered in celebration of what I never had with Aurelia... No. I had it. I just threw it out the window with my own hands.
My eyes stung as pain and anger mixed perfectly together within me when Tristan pulled her into him, kissing her deeply and slowly... as if they were oblivious to the presence of the rest of us.
I could sense my pack's grief as my members witnessed another man claiming my destined mate whose rejection I still haven't accepted. Gosh! My soul hurts. It has been since yesterday. I tried to but I couldn't put an end to the grief. "This is your fault! We shouldn't be feeling this pain-" Lex didn't hesitate to put the blame on me once again.
His hatred for me has grown even deeper since the devastating discovery that made it clear that Aurelia would never give me another chance... not when she is the mother of Tristan's kids.... Not when he was kissing her like that. Fuck!
"I agree. It's my fault." I muttered to my wolf, turning around to save myself from the pain of watching Tristan eat Aurelia's face... Heck! I had never kissed her but that asshole got to kiss her. I should be the one holding and kissing her. "We lost her-"
"You chose not to kiss her even when you claimed her body over and over again just like you chose not to mark her. If you had marked and cherished her, the bond wouldn't be punishing us." Lex growled, sharing his pain with me and causing my legs to buckle under my weight. "Can you make it stop? I can't bear it."
If wolves could cry, Lex would have broken down in tears since last night. In fact, if I could, I'd wail right here while the little masked boy jumped energetically around Tristan and Aurelia who were still clinging to each other like fucking lovers...
"There's one way to put an end to this pain. Only one." I uttered to my wolf, embracing our emotions.
Lex gritted in response, "Don't even dare, Raiden!"
Although I hadn't voiced my thoughts to him, he could tell. "But that's the only way. She's lost to us forever, Lex and I can't keep holding on to a broken bond."
"You won't be accepting her rejection, Raiden! I won't let you!" Lex growled ferociously and my skin pricked as he tried to dominate my mind.
It was obvious that I'd suffer greatly if I was to accept Aurelia's rejection. I could lose my wolf and strength.
"No, Raiden." Lex chimed, still very much angry. "You've to fight for her."
"I've fought enough if you ask me. This is the point where we both accept defeat. She's a mother and she just accepted to marry that fool." I was getting angry too. It was almost impossible to know if I was angry because of Lex or because of the wave of happiness rolling off Tristan and straight into my nostrils. "She kissed him and she-"
"I recall you kissing Larisa's face many times in the past but you still don't love her... you didn't even mark her." Lex argued.
"What is that supposed to mean?" The mental argument between my wolf and I was becoming unbearably long but it was the only thing keeping my mind off Aurelia and her happy family.
Lex responded instantly, "Aurelia is still unmarked and that makes her ours, Raiden. You can still get her back before he marks her."
Maybe... I thought to myself.
Even if I somehow manage to win Aurelia back, what will happen to her kids? What-
Lex cut in, "You'll raise them with her. We still have a chance and raising Tristan's kids is good enough punishment for the maltreatment you dished out to Aurelia in the past."
My wolf's words were a direct hit to my ego. Raise Tristan's kids? Hell! Winning Aurelia back would be harder than raising the kids of my enemy.
"Just get her back-"
I barked at Lex, "Enough! I've heard enough."
Before my wolf could counter or put more unachievable ideas in my head, I put a strong mental shield between our minds, blocking him out.
But the universe was against me because the next second, I heard Larisa's voice resonating through my mind, "You don't look good, Raid. You can't possibly be jealous."
I couldn't find the energy to glare at her as my eyes rested on her twisted face.
"Please don't make a fool out of us and embarrass yourself before these people." Although she used the word 'please', her tone was harsh.
"Stay out of my head." I gritted before blocking her out too, focusing on the despair in my heart.
Larisa's face twisted into a frown
but was soon replaced by a mischievous grin that had me scowling at her. Before I could warn her, she managed to get the crowd's attention despite the cheerso
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Larisa announced without sparing me another look, "As the Luna of this pack, I'd like to celebrate Alpha Tristan and his family."
"What are you doing?" I whispered, grabbing Larisa's hand to stop her but she simply flashed one of her fake smiles.
"And of course, Dark Moon's victory in the games." Larisa continued. "My mate and I will be hosting a celebratory feast later this evening. Make sure you're there."
If I didn't have a history of getting bewitched by Larisa's fake smiles, I'd have wondered how anyone in the arena couldn't tell that she was pretending. The cheers that followed her announcement made it clear that she had won the hearts of many.
At the expense of my comfort.
"How dare you make such an announcement without consulting me first!" I blurted angrily as soon as Larisa and I were alone.
She rolled her eyes, "I tried to but you blocked me out, remember? Moreover, It's just a feast. No big deal."
It was a big deal for goddess' sake!
But the deed was done. Thanks to
Larisa, I had to be in the same breathing space with the woman I loved but would never have... This could just be the end of our story as
Cas I was concerned.
But thanks to Katie and Kyle, this was just the beginning.