CHAPTER 55- DIFFERENT FEELINGS
Emily
The room has white painted walls. I know I felt something weird, but that the doctor declared it as over-fatigue made me realize even worse. I have to take care of myself ’cause I have a history of being sick when I was young.
I’ve spent almost my day here at the hospital and am quite thankful that Anders wasn’t checking up on me. I know he might be worried if he sees me in her, but I have to hide it from him because I know I have to rest; besides, there’s nothing between us, so why do I have to bother him at all.
A soft knock caught my attention, and I saw the doctor widely smiling at me. He acted so weirdly, and I didn’t understand.
“How do you feel now, Miss Emily?” the doctor politely greeted me and smiled even more as he shook my hand.
“I want to be discharged today. Can you do that, please?” I requested him.
I wanted to be out of here ’cause Anders might find out that I am sick, and I don’t want it to happen. Staying away from him would be better for me.
“But, Miss Emily, stay here until tomorrow because I need to do lab tests for you,” the doctor answered me while checking my blood pressure. He smiled, just like most doctors do.
“What do you mean by that?” I seriously asked and inhaled deeply.
“You might not be aware of your situation. That’s why I need to speak with your husband, but I guess he’s busy? Anyway, Miss Emily, you’re pregnant. I need to do more lab tests tomorrow to make sure.”
He said and checked the drip that the nurse had just replaced before he came in. My eyes widened, and I was speechless by what he announced.
I have a baby?
She’s here
I caressed my tummy and couldn’t believe that a human was growing inside my belly.
“First time, Miss Emily?”
I nodded my head and showed a smile on my face. My God, I will be a mother soon.
“I understand; many parents are like that, so Congratulations.” he smiled and offered me a hand.
I accepted that and smiled back at him. This man knew how first-time parents feel.
“I hope your husband will show up by tomorrow because pregnancy is not only for mothers like you but also for teamwork with your husband.”
I did not answer him and gave him a sparing smile while he was gathering his things on the other side of the table. But I imagine Anders Winston with that scenario. I mean, he may not be a husband material type of person, but at least in my imagination, he’s caring and loving, the complete opposite of his reality.
The doctor left me once again, and this time I felt alone, and it was not a good thing, but it was sad ’cause I grew close to my parents and with someone beside me in every situation in my life. It’s hard being here alone, especially since I am a first-time parent. My mother went back abroad with my father, they’re planning to live there in Canada and since my mother witnessed my happiness as she thought that it would be my forever but I think it will not.
Now, I understand why I have felt weird for the past few days. I caressed my belly, and I could not avoid the happiness in me this time. I was smiling all time, knowing that I would be a mother soon, but half of me was nervous because I did not know if I could raise him well.
Inhaling deeply after realizing a lot of thoughts after this pregnancy, what made me feel afraid was Anders Winston. Unease by feeling that he might not accept our child and me, but if I didn’t tell him, I am confident he would be mad at me.
What should I do?
What if he refused about this unborn child of mine?
Shit
I don’t know what to do. After realizing those thoughts were not just simple but facts that hit me hard this time and felt emotional, I clenched my fist. I could feel the tears on my eyelid and wiped it out with my fingers.
Why am I feeling this way? I can’t even understand my emotions right now. I think this is just part of my pregnancy. I don’t know what to think right now. I need someone, a person who could help me understand this situation.
Somehow, it relaxed as I breathed in and out, but it won’t eliminate the fact that Anders might refuse this baby.
But, whatever his decision, I will never plead for my baby’s acceptance ’cause I can take care of her, especially since I am not after his name or finances. All I care about now is to raise this child well enough to be a good person.
I closed my eyes and let it feel inside me. I am nervous about this.
Mom and Dad might not be mad, but they might be happy if they found out about this child’s father. I sat at the edge of the bed, thinking about what will happen in the future, but no answer came out through my head.
After letting out a heavy sigh, I could hear a couple of knocks at the door when someone entered the room. It was the older man, the driver of Anders Winston, who was sweating and p[anting while staring at me.Content bel0ngs to Nôvel(D)r/a/ma.Org.
“Miss Emily, Mr. Winston was looking for you, and he said he would fetch you tonight.”
He panicked and gulped for the last time.
I smiled and said, “Then tell him I will wait for him.”
I casually smiled at him and did not show the worry inside me. I knew what to do, and this time, the moment that the driver went out, I dialed his number on my phone.
“Hi, babe,”
My brows furrowed after hearing his words. Babe? Why did he call me like that? Is he serious about it, or he’s just teasing me?
“I’ll be fetching you tonight.”
Ah! His voice was lingering in my ears, and I wanted to be with it the whole day. I do not know why I was feeling more relaxed this time when I heard his voice, so I cleared my throat and answered him.
“I- I can’t… I can’t be with you tonight. I need to rest today.” There was a sound in my throat. Then I coughed for him to believe that I was sick today.
“What?! The driver didn’t inform me about that. I’ll visit you later….”
My eyes widened after hearing it from him. Sh*t! I didn’t expect this. His perseverance was undeniably strong this time. I exhaled and caressed my forehead while thinking of another word for him not to know the truth.
“Please not today, Anders. I’m better alone here, okay?” I whispered on the phone, but enough for him to hear it.
He didn’t say any words, but I could hear his breath, and I was pretty worried about what I said.
“I’m sorry, I just want to rest tonight,” I said with a low tone of my voice.
He let out a deep sigh and said, “I understand if you are still not feeling well by tomorrow, I’ll be there whether you like it.”
His statement made me speechless, and I only heard a beep on the other line. I know he has words, and if said, he will do it, so this time, I have to think of different ways to get out of this. He should not know about this. I might be selfish on this matter, but I need to see if he’s worth being with. He’s a playboy, so I am not expecting something from him. I think he is a typical billionaire.
I’m just unfortunate to be with him among the people in this world. Why him? Why does this kind of man always want to dominate people like me? I broke up with my ex ’cause I know he’s a dumba**, and now with Anders Winston? Oh God, help me with this man. I want to be far away from him. He’s powerful enough to control everything, even my parents and the world. I never wish to have a man like him, but why am I feeling more profound toward him? Not now ’cause I need to leave him in no time. I will make sure that it will be casual and nothing else.
He’s not just for me.
I’m far from him, and even our status is quite the same, yet I’m far from his achievements. When I got older, everything went away. I want to be free and do everything I want.