First Love

LILY’S POV

I flinched when I heard his sick voice again in my head. He was calling me his bitch but still like yesterday I wasn’t able to shove his voice away. It was like those words were locked inside the corners of my brain. I hate him, I hate Adrain more than anything else. He messed up my life and made me worthless even in my own heart. He crushed all the hope I’d ever had for my future and now only pain remains. He made me hate my own body and soul and now I couldn’t tolerate more.

I wiped my tears away and turned the shower on to clear my mind. Wincing a little, I let the cold water soak over my skin thoroughly. I know my body will become clean after this bath but the taints on my soul will never fade. I will never be that old Lily, never. Part of me already died and now it’s like, my body was only awake while my soul was fading every second.

I pressed my eyes shut and sat on the tilted floor under the water. My thoughts went blank and mind automatically started creating the lyrics which will give me some strength to tolerate this situation but nothing worked. I was always the one to plot songs which will give strength to those who have no reason to live for tomorrow but now I realize that no amount of lyrics can ever ease the pain or maybe I choose not to ease my heart because I know very well that however harder I’ll try, Adrain will crush me with the point of no return.

I Chuckled dryly at my pathetic condition and glanced at bed only to found Adrian waking up from his deep sleep.

He had made me sleep whole night on the floor, naked in this cold temperature. That’s the other thing that not even for once my eyes asked to sleep. And why would they? After all the cool breeze was enough to give me goosebumps and shiver whole night.

” Good morning, bitch.” He mumbled in his rough morning voice and ran his gaze down my body.

I stayed rooted to my place…

” So do you enjoyed sleeping on the floor?” He asked, smirking.

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” SAY YES.” He screamed, switching to his rage full voice.

I forced myself to nod my head in fake approval and it had taken all in me to not cry again.

” BITCH, ANSWER ME PROPERLY.”

” Y… Ye… s.” I shuttered taking a step when when he get up from bed and took few strides towards me.

My body started shaking in fear and all I did was to take steps back till my body came in contact with wall. I looked straight into his eyes which were reflecting nothing but haunting emotions of pure rage. He clenched his jaw then came forward to grab fistful of my hair and capture my mouth in brutal kiss. He moved his lips forcefully against mine and roughly bit on my lower lips which instantly caused blood to ooze out. I yelped and tried to push him away but he was way to powerful than to be moved by me.

” I AM FUCKING HUNGRY, GO PREPARE A DAMN BREAKFAST FOR ME BEFORE I EAT YOU ALIVE.” He said and shoved me away which only made me to stumble on the floor.

I touched my bruised lips then nodded slowly while getting up and walking towards his kitchen.

I rested my head on the kitchen counter before starting to prepare the breakfast for him.

What’s wrong with him? What’s with the sudden rage? He was smirking a moment ago and then ended up with change in mood?

I pursued my lips together and shook my head to clear my thought about him. He’s nothing but a sick man without any humanity left.

I turned the gas on and placed pan on it. My body was way to tired to do anything but I didn’t have any other option left. So, I tried to cook whatever was possible.

Seconds passed into minutes in utter silence before I felt someone’s hand on my back. I gasped in shock and before I could turn around to figure out that who it could be, I heard the familiar chuckling sound which confirmed that he was Adrian.

” Fuck… Your ass is damn fuckable.” He coaxed, pushing more into me.

I cried, letting my tears streamed down my cheeks and that’s the only thing I can do beside feeling the intense pain.

I clenched my teeth at his sick words and swallowed a thick lump down my throat. Today I promise myself that I won’t ever defend a word to him because he’s not worth.

My feet were limp but somehow I stood straight with help of counter and fixed my eyes on the floor.

” Lie down on the floor.”

I inhaled a shaky breath but followed his words into actions, anyways. My eyes searched his face in fear that now what he’s up to. My thigh and back was already sore and the pain was inevitable.

I scurried my eyebrows when I saw him kneeling down with the plate full of pancakes which I’ve made in his hand. Before I could understand anything, he parted my legs apart and shoved the burning pancakes in my vagina. I ended up screaming at the burning sensation but he didn’t let me move a bit instead he bend down only to attach his lips to eat the pancakes. I stayed there flinching like a fish out of water. He was burning my vagina.

My toes curled in unbearable feeling and he shoved another burning piece of pancake followed by biting it along with my flesh. This was torture, a pure torture. I couldn’t take this anymore. If this is how he’s going to make me suffer then I don’t want to stay alive. It is better to die than to tolerate his actions for hurting me.

Physical tortures are worst of all because they hold the power to desire for death.

” P-Please… d-don’t…” I pleaded.

” Wait, let me capture this moment.” He ignored my words and quickly pulled out the cellphone from his pocket and turned the video recording on.

I closed my eyes in shame.

What could be the mental state of my brothers and father after witnessing the sick games which Adrian was playing with my body?

What does he want from us? Why he was doing this to us? Is there any reason behind all this or he’s doing all this just for fun. No, there isn’t any reason. He’s doing all this just to calm his sadistic thoughts and have some fun at my suffering, I know.

” Do you want to Skype your brothers?” He laughed.

My eyes went wider in horror and quickly I shook my head in denial. I couldn’t face them, I couldn’t face the hurt in their eyes at my this pathetic state.

” Awe, my bitch doesn’t want. But you’ve to baby girl.” He said and in a matter of second, two familiar faces flashed on his cell phone’s screen.

I stilled at my place and rolled my bottom lips inside my mouth to scream the names of my brothers for asking help. They had always promised to protect me but now that promise even doesn’t meant a thing.

Both Jack and Dennis eyes were on me. There face was hollow yet I was able to feel the hurt residing deep in their eyes. Dennis mouthed a sorry and clenched his eyes in frustration while all Jack did was to stare at me, helplessly.

A little relief I have that Dad wasn’t there otherwise he might have not beeen able to tolerate my pain.

” Why are you doing this to her?” Jack finally broke the silence.

To my periphery I saw Adrian holding a void look on his face. A trembling sob escaped my lips when he poured the hot milk on my breasts. My skin itched to wipe them away but my fingers didn’t have any strength left to do so. Being unable to control more, I broke down crying. Tears continually escaped through my eyes while my lungs started getting out of breath.

” Fuck. D-Don’t… Please… don’t hurt her.” Dennis pleaded, folding hands in front of Adrian but that only fueled him to pour more burning hot milk on my abdomen.

I screamed again this time more louder but my screams were only his pleasure.

I struggled to keep myself sane but nothing happened. My body started getting out of control to remove those flesh on which milk was leaving behind the bruises.

” Forgive me Lily, fucking forgive me for being unable to save you.” It was Jack this time who yelled in guilt and turn his face away from not being able to watch this anymore.

Dennis ran his fingers through his hairs and in frustration I guess he threw the cellphone away that’s why the connection end.

” This was just a start.” Adrian whispered under his breath and pushed his cellphone back in his pocket.

I became stunned in worry and glanced at him who whistled and threw a wink at me before storming out of the kitchen.

Kill me Adrian, just kill me instead. I don’t have enough strength left to bear anything else. You’ve already made me suffer hell, now just do me a little favour and end everything by killing me.